So I’ve been spending about 80% of my time sleeping.. When I’m not I wish I was.. Yesterday sucked big time.. I cried most of the day/night.. Also spent the day/night thinking about hurting myself.. How to do it.. How to clean it/myself up.. How to hide it.. How I hate that people know about it.. How I hate that I’ve done it.. How I wish that I had a kit like other cutters have.. How I hate that I wished that.. How I wished I wasn’t like this.. I feel like everyone hates me, even the cat.. Which I know is not true.. Because I don’t know everyone.. No job.. No insurance.. Just fucked.. Just fucked..